zooom

whew what a day! up early, at school, when i don't have to be, though steph's, not mine, caught between mom and steph, running everybody else's errands and i still don't have a solid form of gainful employment. oh my head is spinning and i keep fucking bleeding. goddamn all hormones, female especially. i wonder is there someway to switch them off until i need them. i don't want an excuse for being extra moody and short-tempered, i rather just not be either. i don't know if i want to scream and run in circles or take a nap. I don't know what i want at all, don't even know how i feel. nothing bad has happened, but i feel like the whole day's gone pear-shaped. is it a premonitory panic, or just pre menstrual? blahhhhh. ok no more whining. haiku for the day:rumbling along likethunder, the train is a crowslicing day from dawn